I will be glad to be rid of this life

no more of God snatching away what I work to achieve

just as I'm about to attain it

no more doing what I can to repent and amend

and have it come to little or nothing

no more trying to do the right thing

only to have it explode in everyone's faces

I know now God is not love

but pure cold unforgiving vengeance

liability be damned

I owe up but so what?

the One still insists on the Price

being gouged out of us

well let it be that then

I was as foolish as anyone

with our limited self-serving ideas of religion

atonement is as nothing

because God's vengeance is primary

and it's just too bad if your religion doesn't

support your faith

religion politics law all of it

nothing but enslaving man-made concepts

doing nothing but keeping us

from the Infinite

and the One does it with our own acts

innocent stumbling or deliberate manipulation

you will pay and pay

and no amount of 'sorry' will make a difference

as you stumble and fuck up more and more

and all God can or will do is weep with you

cling to your fake religions

for all I know they work because

of the belief you invest in them

but for me I pay the price for vanity

for thinking I could arrive in good grace

at some resolution and atonement

after scrambling out the box of tradition

God wants you to transcend then blocks you

every step of the way

I have no idea how much more of this I can endure

but as the Light grows I diminish

and the happiest time of this life

will be leaving it

my good never good enough...

Content (c) 2008-2012 Philip Milito.