Friday, April 29, 2016

I live for the ultimate time my love

will learn to absorb its suffering

into an understanding of the peace

that passes understanding

no wonder love is so crazy

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
hard hearts

breaking at last

they have finally

gathered too much weight

for their power to uphold

they have at long last

met the limit they thought

they could weld like an ax

on any but themselves

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Thursday, April 28, 2016

the less you try to do

the more gets done

another mystery of God

of which we must accommodate ourselves

try to figure things out and you'll fail

without a doubt or success

try to finally accept the Mysteries

and your comprehension will grow

somewhat clearer

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
the heart speaks for the mind

and is indistinct

the mind doesn't know what it's saying

because it listened to the heart

a hard choice indeed when you remember

how so many told you to listen

to your heart and you found out

your head was right after all

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
any moment will see me gone

at least from here in the earth

any moment will see me arrive

at somewhere else I need to remember

any moment will leave me in some quandrey

that will force me back into cycles of rebirth

as any moment could leave me clear and empty

and finally out of the loop

how I wish I knew how and why

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

I am never sure of anything

that's my saving grace

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
stop churning your nerves

over how things are

let them be what they are

and look forward

to what you will become

if you become strong enough

to stop churning your nerves

and let life be what and how it is

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

God shouldn't take any bows

for this ugly plan or for creating us

asshats from the word 'go'

in a fresh world of decay

we are made in His image

so the word has always been

but I'd be too ashamed to cop to it

I'd admit the wrong and cease or try yet again

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


given nothing yet

given all

all that you get

will make you fall

what did you earn?

what did you take?

and how did you learn

you'd made a mistake?

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Monday, April 25, 2016

our own notions drive us to insanity

give no thought to God or others

they make life on earth impossible

slide other the surface of the crystalline pool

that shimmers like a mirror under the sky

and be one of the deep reflections

of light hovering at the bottom opening

a different direction to your peace

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

I am happiest

when I do not think of God or life or others

when the moon instead dips its tongue

down from the sky to drop dew

on my parched lips

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milio.
no forgiveness for us?

no forgiveness for You oh filthy One

we are all One after all

aren't we?

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
worshippers of God

how on earth do you begin to know

good from evil when the One is almost anything

it need be to dominate?

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


I feel bad for the gentle creatures

the ones who hide at a sweeping shadow

and either by sheerest fortune with survive their term

or feel the talons close as they are consumed

and join yet another order of being

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
I might as well put my faith in a chimpanzee

than expect loyalty or cooperation

from any of you half-wits

who think you're just fine

until you wind up to your eyes

in your own shit-pool

of contentment and disregard

as least the chimp doesn't put on airs

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Friday, April 22, 2016

vengeance from anyone but God will not do

but you will understand if you follow through

you will feel in your earth-bound reasoning justified

and that is where God will dismiss your entitlement as denied

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
when we talk of love

what love are we talking of?

you caging a bird

and angry with me

for releasing it?

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
you exaggerate and I must suffer the slander

but you will also face some accounting

and you too will have a tongue load

of explanation before One who's not buying it

watch what you do and doubly what you say

it may not go as you hoped after all

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Thursday, April 21, 2016

you all love just reading me

when I am constantly dying

in the center of my own

dismal lack of imagination

but longing for the ages

when I was young and fresh

doesn't quite make it either

you can only have so many visions

let alone explain any of them

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
when I die

you'll miss the loving

and all the good times

but you won't miss

the circumstances

that rubbed us raw as scrapes

on the arm of a starfish

so it will be

so much love and hate

pulling us with centrifugal force

into spasms of dark ecstasies

wilting us in the living sea's foam

so much love and hate knotted tight

in one tarnished vow

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

red clouds of night give way

to a slate gray light

through the window blinds

I awake from a pleasant dream

and only remember that it was pleasant

when I return from the bathroom

I lie down and again feel my awareness

blur into the tinged darkness of early morning

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
rain clouds gather and sweat

as drizzle gives resonance

to the damp mild night

my body gives in to its own calm

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
dog bites

then lays down

set to rights

his turf the town

but here we come

with a heavy leash

he snarls but cannot run

how soon a reign is finished

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

unloved by all but the few who came up with me

I've learned who and what to trust

and even those who've fallen away

had something to teach

I'm having a lucid moment now

so I can comprehend

what tomorrow may sound like gibberish

or move me again to ire

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

mercy? there is none

love? what's that?

goodness? never had the pleasure

this world is our construct

we do our best to do right

and fatally stumble

when we don't and revelation

an awakening to the hard cold facts

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
I mourn eternity

now that I know

the disposition

of the Proprietor

of Creation

I want nothing more

than to rejoin the All

and that aspiration

will be the very sense of

self that will block and deny me

I mourn the human

condition that ever suffers

and never is forgiven

by our ever inadequate faith

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
I'm sorry we are not of a God

who is more proactive

and less hands-off concerning

the aid we need to live

but nothing we do is perfect enough

to amend and to atone and gain grace

not even a graduated approach moves the heartlessness

of a God who is all or nothing

the old saying says "God's Will is our woe"

I wish I were settled enough in my soul

to bear this fatal view of God's so-called

love and wholeness and harmony and goodness

I'm sorry we are of God if this is how it is

where pain and suffering is considered a blessing

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

you are at your own mercy

and in your mighty ignorance

you'll worsen your lot

or in your humble wisdom

you'll own up to your harm

and begin amends impossible to realize

at once but no matter how esoteric the lesson

it's still treat yourself and others right and it will return to you

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
kind and foolish

and somehow safe from abuse

maybe there is a measure of grace

protecting the halt and the harried

that our yammering for help from above

doesn't touch because of its insincerity

we who torment the

kind and foolish

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
the space we leave when we go from here

can never be filled

but only shoved aside by the space of another being

incoming for its testing of the earth

to anyone still in the world

it will look like the same space

but everywhere you stand opens another portal

then there is no shortage of exits

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
are you fool enough to try to manipulate God?

why do you think when you die you're as far from

your idea of heaven as we here in flesh are?

give it a shot but the only one you're fooling is yourself

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
record your secret thoughts and desires

but if your privacy is violated by one

who claims to love you so 

you'll see how common are the thoughts you share

and you'll be pained by the hypocrisy

of that loved one for using it as a weapon

against you so you finally record that the reason

for love is to destroy you

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

about the hell we make of the world

there is no defence

we forget the Hand that fashioned

this earth

and we forget the Hand that fashioned

each one of us

and why bother addressing what each of us

know or at least suspect

in our minds and hearts? we can justify

no lapses in our attention

but indulge them in selfish despair after all

which sinks us more deeply

into the guilt on us for wrecking every way we could

to heel the hell we make of the world

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milio.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

the simple helping hand-up

the moment of courtesy to another

the good deed unheralded and unrewarded

the recipient who rests in its quiet joy

the love that gives until the vessel is empty

only to pour yet more love

why do we mock these simplest acts mightier than war?

why do we make hash of all that is holy?

what is it about the earth that makes it so hard

to wise up?

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
go tell them I said

life has no beginning and no end

and if they believe it won't be me

they believe but the absolute actuality

of this ultimate reality itself that opened their ears

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

when change happens

it happens

so suddenly and imperceptibly

that it takes years for you

to know it happened

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

so as the daylight fades

you finally know what's for the best

you take all that's yours and go

and leave behind all the rest

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
wrong my whole life

(or misguided at best)

my lessons have sunk in

too late to put into practice

ever does earthly life end

just as we're about to begin

but maybe these lessons flower

elsewhere in these cosmos

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
the clear light of the eternal day

what do we in our small decaying skins

know of it but for our own mistaken notions?

close your eyes and see darkness

open your eyes and see light

in your life's brief moment

what more do you need to know?

life is that basic if we let it be

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
under the setting sun

the night creatures begin to stir

their luminous eyes

flashing back your own soul

like mirrors reflecting a flashlight

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
as opportunity arises

grab it and utilize it

each instant is its own eternity

and the chance may not happen again

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
mind becoming more blank by the day

memory merges with immediate living

and forms a picture of my content

as one moment in a brief lifetime

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016


how light

the soul feels

when all the

futile trying

of life goes

and one can start

to remember

who one really is

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


trial and error all though life

to learn what death will cut short

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


not until I walked

under the shadow of death

did I finally get

what it meant to be alive

all of ego's will

beginning to fade

in the ruins of it's

miscalculated understanding

and all the good

I suppressed in the name

of ambition's ignorance

revives within the hardened heart and all

I regret is having needed to walk

in death's shadow to remember how to live

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Sunday, April 10, 2016

I'm the last one to say

if I'll still be around by Christmas

old friends and loved ones

may have already seen the last of me

and while my memories subsume me

in agonies of all I've done wrong

it is only in dreams that I remember

good times and happy memories

the suffering wasn't all 24/7

there were grace notes that teased the spheres

and never did a time spent in my own room

fail to calm me from the hardships of our Oneness

wherever I wind up so will you

and again we will face the evidence of our loving

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
how quickly life goes when your time is up

healthy and strong one week

and the next week weak and pained

and no strength even to rise

don't disdain this news

you at the peak of your life

your own body will take you down

your own life gone like snow in the sun

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


nothing forestalls

the hounds of hell

the Lord unleashes

He will have His price

even if He must crush and discard

your earnest attempts at amendment

and repentance

forgiveness is one word not in God's vocabulary

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


deep spring and still winter will not let go

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
so this is how I'm going to die

at the mercy of morons

at the hands of idiots

I'm supposed to love

as my brethren

but this life blinded me

to the supposed holiness we all share

all I see are beggars and whores

and no real humility in them

because they are busy

manipulating guilt in the soft

outlooker who averts his eyes

in guilt and fear

and I will die by these hands

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
nothing is vouchsafed

nothing is granted

you take your shot

and you won't know

if you've made it

until all things pass

and you'll find in amazement

you still have consciousness

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Saturday, April 9, 2016


I didn't realize my death

would take so long

and fix nothing in the long run

but Bauderlaire knew what I was

talking about when he wrote

"man be damned and live"

alright then...let's put this spiritual stuff

to the test and try a total change of mind....

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


I will die

of these arrogant bastard's


before my complaint takes me down

all of them talk like used car salesmen

(God forbid they give you full disclosure)

and their moron staff

forgetting to inform you of your next appointment

(don't even get me started on trying

to talk to your doctor rather than his assistant)

and your prognosis

and guess after a multitude of risk/benefits

poisons disguised as medicine

and I'm reminded how once I said I'd rather die in the street

than in a hospital...I may yet do so....

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


with the welcome refreshment of a breeze

comes all the promise of renewal

that a change of season announces

before however it comes you shall freeze

and wish for a hope of withdrawal

while the change rears up to pounce

but when it passes you on your knees

you'll see your fear as a small betrayal

of faith and sulk mildly into the fields of your play

chagrined in the sweet breeze covering your day

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

pliant and accepting

as a saved soul

does the body become

as it gets old

how quickly it falls

when it comes

and all the past

is now your present

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
I was thinking about my idea of heaven

run by the raging evil of my own false idol

how sad my consciousness must be to engird

and sustain this poor human constuct

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


I tell you the truth

you hear lies

but I disdain my fictions

and you embrace your fact

what translation


Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
if I were any happier

I do believe I'd be carried off

on a stretcher

to the savage god who loves me so

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
screaming baby

in the downstairs apartment

(the mother oversensitive

and once requesting

we don't flush the toilet

after 11:00 PM)

she has something else

to keep her up

night and day

ha how sweet

not that I rejoice in my enemy's troubles

but ha how sweet

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito
I'll bet you're sorry

you treated me cheaply

my friend

but your uncompleted

film projects

were just the playing

of a dying man

trying to think he accomplished something

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
day grows darker

colder too

april 6

the missing spring


in the bak

of trees

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

God must have loved at one time

someone must have treated Him

badly enough for Him to be driven

to the hardness that He shows His creation

no wonder no one likes Him

who needs to offer love and be treated like shit

only to be small enough to give it back

but then forgiveness was never His strong point

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


everybody needs to be led by the hand

no one can think for themselves

(whatever they may think they are about)

why do I waste words on you?

you won't even listen to a wise loved one

preferring to moo in the moonlight

to the one who'll squeeze your teats

and leave them dry while you shout hosannas....

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Monday, April 4, 2016

the fruit of action

is its own reward

enjoy your harvest

before the cold and dark

descends on your table

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Sunday, April 3, 2016



clean and empty

as machinery

tuned to their function

and heartless

beyond measure

and the noble lies

of cowards and syncophants

making allowance

for these moral-less

psychotics and presuming

to cover all of themselves in judgment

and that is exactly how

judgment destroys us all

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip milito.

Saturday, April 2, 2016


closer I get to my finish line

the more I'm baffled

the more I'm frightened

and yet some bizarre calm

envelopes this anxiety

it's as if a soldier on a firing squad

has made peace with his choices

may he be the one to still me when I cross over

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.
you have no say over anything

you make your move

and hope for the best

you make your move

and the rest is out of your hands

Content 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


all new


all blue

my life


in the home stretch

and I dare not

be a betting man

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


if daylight savings time

makes people all tired and clumsy

what does it do

to vampires?

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.

Friday, April 1, 2016


feeling happy?

see a doctor

(or at least

share what you're holding....)

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


oh the common

complaint unfixable

"oh woe is me

woe is me

I must ask my bowels

permission to leave

the house"

well at least there is the old Kao....

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.


just how is

this day


from any other?

Content (c) 2008-2016 Philip Milito.