it really is a fraud to talk about

art and religion and politics and working

for your daily bread as if they were separate things

the truth is they are all aspects of One Process

and it is only our personal nonsense

that is our own ego imaginings

that make a problem of applying what we know

to be true

this comes tough hard for an old dog like me

who for all his spiritual pretensions

would look for the golden opportunity

to seize to grasp to hold and be inflamed

by success or passion or entitlement to a reward

even while I knew better while I knew differently

because everything in life is a fraud

the idea that you could be a master of the universe

in whatever field whether plain old power

or sexual conquest or whatever it is we need

to oppress another to get what we want

it 's all crap it's all ego it's all death

and the pain of knowing on top of whatever

others might say

that you're nuts you're crazy you've been alone too long

the actual Truth is a reality beyond all our scheming

and will reward or punish us according

to our true righteousness

it is hard to maintain this truth in the earth

where all is delusion and gratification of ego

even among those who think they are right

with God

I cannot contain this fullness of awareness

I feel like I'm going to explode at any instant

because God leaves us to suffer own path

pay for our own transgressions

do what we do to be as Dylan said

'something more than something we invest in'

yes nothing we've known applies any longer

everything is finally breaking down

and even your Plan B 's are no longer dependable

everything's on the table

all the cards are spread out

and now we walk it like we talk it or pay heavily

a price none of us can really afford in earthly terms

unless we are willing to accept our price accept our fate accept

our duplicity in the snares of perfection

and own up

and whatever comes of it comes of it

because a Heart greater than ours

will soothe us

if this isn't so that truly nothing matters

but as tough as God's Love is

it is merciful

if you believe there's nothing after this life

then nothing is what you'll get and you'll miss nothing

if you believe Life is Eternal

then that is your track

and you will continue

even if the way forward looks like God

messing with you every inch of the way

as long as you're alive there is no death

so be true to your work your spouse

even your whore if that's the case

we're all in this together

and it's all of us or none of us make it

and for those who are hell-bent on domination

pity or pray for them

because God had the last word on everyone and everything

if you believe life is nothing but dog-eat-dog

then that is how you'll die and die out

if you believe in God's Love (ego and agape)

then you will follow

adventure after adventure

until the final approach to God sees you

clean and absolved and ready for your place

in the Permanent

I have no faith in this earthly time

of even coming on to that perfection

I'm too busy worrying all I've done or should have done

may I and all who are at this level

learn surrender upon our acceptance

may we finally be shown at least

the way out of this earthly suffering

that is murderous illusion

to all who wish to transcend but cannot

because of their false creeds and easy beliefs

God gives us enough rope every chance we get

may we finally wise up and know

it doesn't have to be this way...

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