last deal played

aces and eights

no hope now

luck all gone


God in hiding

tsk tsk-ing from on high

the Crooked Bookie

hedging all bets


can't even cash out

money's all lost

and no kind words

will deliver me from this fall


better times coming

I doubt they will or that I'll see them if they do


luck all gone

no hope now

aces and eights

last deal down...




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The One's Will

being our woe


that love being so

hard and vicious


and giving a gift of Life

with so (too) many strings attached


it will be wonder

if any of us survive


this unbelievable Love

and make it to some salvation...




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we're all alone but we always were


nothing like waking up from a nightmare

into a living daily nightmare


you didn't go far wrong


you still woke up in a cold sweat

and the body next to you

slept its childish dream


3 A.M. and as alone

as you've ever been...




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you want holy preachings

go elsewhere


I'm suffering like a pig in a grinder

and I can't buy this shit any more


if this is what payback the One wanted from me

then this is what the One has gotten


I'm going to kill myself with every pleasure

that made life on earth worth living...




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last fantasy I indulged

here is your epitaph


you rhyme

with runt...



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you will be happy

once you learn

you cannot demand how that happiness

will be received by you


you cannot call it into being

you cannot stage-manage its satisfaction

everything you are will block this

until you either give up your attempts at control


or you are broken by its force and the happiness dissipates...


how to put this as simply as possible?

you will be happy once you let yourself

stop being unhappy


and thank you in advance for your snide resort...

all the worse for you that life could really be that sweet and simple




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I should listen to myself

I'm so good at giving other's consolation

perhaps I might believe them when they say

I've been a genuine help

wish I could see what they're getting at

wish I could hear it that way

I should listen to myself...

it never seems to sound that good to me...

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